life is...

abundant. that is what I feel when I am by the sea. it may be that peace is abundant, or pain, or longing, or contentment, or joy. but no matter what the sentiment may be, it is full. complete. overwhelming. I want to live in fullness. what good is a life of mediocre expressions? (admittedly, there is a place to feel nothing.)...but today i want to collapse into the sand at the sheer weight and brilliance of life's abundance. nothing else causes me to gasp so deeply with excitement, almost nervousness. life is at once beautiful, full, and new.

today i gasp deeply because:

my balcony breathes the ocean's fresh wind
i see and feel [you] in this place
the music of the sea pumps green roots into these skeleton streets

by the sea...

I can't even describe how wonderful it is to be by the sea...this phase: simply being.

the plan (?)...

for the next 3 years
1) live, live, live
2) breathe, breathe, breathe
3) love, love, love
4) research, research, research
5) write, write, write
6) assess, compile, submit
7) NUI, Maynooth

#7 may be a pipe dream, but it's worth the dream...